Cause I Have A Bad Day

Ever since i pierced my left ear, I feel that all those bad lucks are surrounding me now...I'm really regret of it...What if I didnt pierced my ear? Is it my luck will change from bad to worst? Or is getting better...I don't even know...I'm seeking help from God everytime I face a problem...but God seems like don't bother about me anymore...I'm always alone to face the problems...No one including God could help me or save me...I read an article about God...the article was about a man who is facing a lot of problems...and he seeked help from the God..One day, when he was walking at the beach with God, he said that the God didn't help him to solve all the problems and claimed that the God wasn't on his side....as there was only a person's footprint on the sand..That guy was very sad until the God told him...there was only 1 footprint and that footprint belongs to God...God lifted him to pass through the problems...

I'm really depressed and sad now...God, why YOU are like abandoned me??? I'm really helpless and I don't know how to continue my journey anymore......I wish that someone is by my side to listen to me and help me to get through all these...but no one cares and even bother about me...God, I really hope that u will appear in my dream and tell me what to do...

21/2/2009

Hey there... well, this few days a stupid question keep on repeating in my mind. I was thinking all the words that you said to me on 3/2/2009. Although it was 3 weeks ago, I'm still keeping the message and everytime i see it, it hurts my heart. That message really broke my heart. And now, i had finally make up my mind... that is letting you go.. Though is hard for me to do that, I'm trying and now I finally let you go...... I hope that this is the last time I got hurt by so called"love" but will it be the last time??? I don't even know...mayb u are having someone by yourside, but that guy is not me....

下雨的日子 Rainy day

Hey!! suddenly got the feeling to write this blog...wakaka....but sorry for those who cant read chinese...ask someone to transalate for you...

Note: suddenly became emo and wrote this love story... but the main character is not me...

只剩下notebook陪我谈了一夜，
沉默的notebook，安静的，黑黑的，
我应该已睡觉了，但你所说的话，一直环绕着我的脑海。
天真的我以为我们的关系，能够像这样，持续到永远。
但是，美好的时光总是短暂的，而且幸运之神永远不在我这边。

妳终于开口了，告诉我 最残忍的事实。
妳只希望我们的关系只维持在现有的阶段，你依然还是喜欢我。
但我很想说 喜欢和爱是两样不同的事。
我听了后，傻笑与保持沉默。因为我根本不知道要怎样回答妳。
也许妳说得对，也许是我想太多了，又也许根本是我自作多情。
所以我只能默默地接受。
现在的妳，也许正开心地过日子，但我只希望妳能够再次亲口的告诉我，
妳是爱我，而不是喜欢我。

夜已深了，所有的人都已沉睡了，到各自的梦乡去造梦。
而我则独自一个人 睡不着。
回想起妳所说的话，
一字一句，还很清晰地缠绕着我的脑海，
使我更加地清醒。
想着，想着，不知不觉我的眼泪从我的眼珠滑了下来。
但是，这些眼泪似乎漫无目的地落下来。
因为妳根本不知道我在为妳哭泣。
妳应该都不会理会我吧，让我一个人去面对这残忍的事实。

眼泪使我的眼睛变得模糊，模糊到我看不清妳的样子。
“在一起叫梦，分开了叫痛，
是不是说没有做完的梦最痛？”
这句话深深地反映出我的感受。
能不能给我一首歌的时间，或再给我两分钟，
把故事听到最后才说再见，
一起把说好的幸福变成永恒。
也许，时间会证明一切。但是，需要多久？一天？一个月? 一年？ 我真的不知道。
我希望等到那时候，我们的关系
不会是最熟悉的陌生人，更不回依然是朋友，
而是热恋中的恋人。

但是，这些能否如我所愿？又或者，这些只会出现在童话故事里？
我真的不知道。
只能让时间去证明一切！

Chinese New Year is Over!!!

Finally, 15 days of chinese new year had passed...time flies...so fast..Have to wait till year 2010..well, i realised something after chinese new year...most of the people will fall sick during and after cny...I'm the best example lar...Lolx...I'm suffering from flu, cough and headache at the same time...gosh...but yet seems like no one cares...pity me...haiz...since cny is over, now i have to focus on my studies as test 1 is coming real soon...tat's all that i wanna say for now...